Living by the sunshine

How to stop comparing yourself to someone else in 5 easy steps... Doing this would be a lifechanging skill…  For the better!!! As with most posts I write; I'm writing to you guys but deep, deep, deeeeep down inside, I am writing to myself (That makes sense, right?). So, let me be the first to admit to you that, as giddy as I am, I used to be the first to secretly compare myself to other girls (Instagram models, Kim Kardashian’s sister Kendall and Kylie, pretty much any girls I. could relate to in the same age group and such).               But, this horrific, nearly live-ending accident had a somewhat positive outcome on me in that.  PLEASE EXCUSE MY FRENCH IN THE NEXT SENTENCE. LEARN HOW TO SIMPLY NOT A FUCK. There’s a book on the subject, I have never personally read it, but I would love to.   The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck   Although, it goes against my mental view point of having a po...

REGARDING THIS:     Posted Friday,  July 17, 2020. A month ago...           How disrespectful are these people?  I believe everyone has to be respectful within their own personal beliefs.  I actually, got a "once-in-a-lifetime" of being in (What I believe was god's presence). Or like one of my therapist said, "When you are about to die, your mind was into this 'naturally high' stage". [I mean the high after you smoked a roll or two 😂😂] [MOM, I'm sorry if you're reading this] and it was better than most of the times I reached that point. This is a following excerpt of my autobiography  currently in iBooks forgotten, until, I get the writing bug again. 😭😭😭      "I have complete faith that god is with me; I don’t mean this to teach you what to believe because, to each their own , I now know I can complete everything and it will come out as planned. Some people, might even consider it as cocky. ...

5 Years ago I wrote this... I was ready for life as I knew it, and no one could have told me otherwise.  My life did change in that year; but, not for the better .  And, we did not get along...   I was ready to settle down with life, ready to live life just being a Call Center Representative, along with having a Bachelor's degree (with the help of God, because I failed almost EVERY class...) Little did I know what God had planned for me back then. ...IN FACT, THAT YEAR MY TOOK A COMPLETE 180°. Because, I truly believe he used tragic these circumstances to alter my mental & psychical state. Back then, I was doing drugs left and right... Even though, I worked in a drug-free work place. If any of my managers read my blogposts I'm sorry,  I promise, if I go back to work for you guys I will be 100%   AS PREVIOUSLY SAID... I was basically "Fucking up" my life. (please excuse my language... once again)  I remember, a night where I was st...